Doubts

Sometimes I question. Sometimes I lay in bed at night wondering why I've chosen to live the life I do (yes chosen, I live my life for Christ on my own volition.). It's hard. It sounds crazy. It alienates. I live my life for Christ because I know he gave His life for me. I'm sorry, that's another cliche, but what option do I have? I have every right to be burning in hell right now, but God found a way to rescue me, so what reason do I have to live my life for anyone else? I doubt things, but there are things in my faith I know I will never doubt and those things will always lead me to the One who gave Himself for me.

1. I am broken. God or no god, creation or evolution, this remains true. I and the rest of humankind are evil. We strive for ourselves. You call it "survival of the fittest", I call it sin nature. One and the same.
2. There is a Creator. I can save the debate. I believe 100% that this world is not here by random chance. Too much detail, to many stories of hope, love and joy to believe that emotion and life are both bouncing, very lucky electrons.
3. The Bible is truth. The Bible will never be proven false. I dare you to try. It is the truest thing in history. It has been preserved by God and when all knowledge of the current human culture is gone God's word will remain. The Bible tells about Jesus, leading us to....
4. Jesus is Savior. I can't doubt it. I won't doubt it. Because of #3 it is the defining belief of my worldview. I refuse to believe anything else. This is what gives me hope and joy. The life and death and resurrection of Christ. My brokenness taken away and my joy made complete.

These four things are my thesis for life. they are what I live through, and what I try to live out. When I am attacked by doubts, I come to these things and more importantly, my God, and there I find peace. No, not peace, but Peace. Not some simple feeling of contentment, but the ultimate rest in Christ. What was once called shalom. This is my Joy in all levels. In dark and in light.